Tuesday, February 28, 2012
I've been dreaming about little girls recently. Dreaming about giving birth to one, that is. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my son with everything that I am. He is the best thing in my life. However, I'd love to buy pink or purple or a gamete of pastels, patterns and bows. Ribbons, tutus, and the like. Now, my child may end up like Shiloh Jolie-Pitt and just want to dress like her big brother, but until she has a say, it will be little lady all the way.
Kenji and I are in no rush to have another child at the moment. We are loving our time with Masaya and our biggest concern is to make sure he is confident and we are ready to add to our family. When that time comes, we pray for another healthy and happy baby. Even if we have another little, I will be so grateful to God, but I'll be saying an extra little pray for my sweet, little girl. BTW, that photo is from a close friends baby shower last year that I did for her baby girl.
Love to you all,
Sunday, February 26, 2012
I threw this "Sex and the City" party a few years ago, but it was a hit. The thing about entertaining at home is that its all about presentation. You don't have to do much, but your guest will always feel good about the effort you put forth. I had a few friends over and we just had a great time hanging out. It was my way of showing them that I appreciated them and that I love their company. To this day, its still one of my favorite events!
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
I am a Christian. I believe that there is a God. I believe and follow the teaching of Jesus. Now, before some of you get your panties all in a bunch, let me tell you why I have to formally make this declaration.
It seems like there's been some big atheist movement going on. On bilborads, tv spots and all other souces of media, people are coming out saying that they "don't believe in God", no, better yet, "there is no God and I'm silly for thinking that there is". This is where I have an issue. You don't want me bringing my beliefs to your attention, but you call me silly or stupid for having faith? Now, we all know that there will always be those who say they are Christian and do everything to negate that very statement. Judemental, killers, and just the out right mean. This is not what I stand for. When I say that I am a Christian. I mean that I follow the teachings of Jesus. I try to be like Christ in all that I do. This is the foundation of who I am. The kind of wife, mother, daughter, friend that I am, it is all based on my belief in GOD. You can not place judgement on a whole faith because some people want to act like fools. I love Bill Mahar. He is so intelligent and funny. He is also an atheist. I don't send him hate mail or protest in front of his studio. I respect that he is human. I respect and admire his wisdom and wit. And recently he said that, if Jesus came back I would say, I was wrong. Then let that be it then. No bashing or calling each other names like were 8 years old. Everyone is given a choice. If you believe you believe it, if you don't then that is the choice you have made. Everyone has said, there is no proof that God exist. But you can't show me that God doesn't exist either (talking to you Stephan Hawkings!!!)
We need to start loving each other and stop all this bickering. To get respect, you have to give it and isn't that all we can all ask for?
Sunday, February 19, 2012
We're always told that if you find something that you love doing, stick with it. That people who are happiest with their jobs are people who would do it for no money. This is how I feel when I throw a party. And honestly, its not so much about throwing a party, its about entertaining. I LOVE entertaining. I love putting something together and seeing peoples' reaction when they enter a room. I love the details, the prep, and all that goes into it.
I have fought this for a long time actually. I've known since 2007 that I wanted to be an event planner. The thing for me was more about confidence. I was scared to put it into practice. What if I failed? What if they don't like what I do? How will I support my family? All these things still ring in my head, but they are not as loud as they use to be. I'm at a point in my life where I want to do what I love, what I have a passion for. I have started do small things here and there and if it takes off, I will do it full time. And I don't just want to stop there. I want to grow and expand and eventually combine my talents with my mother's and really make this a family legacy. I hope and pray that I have your support, but with or without it, there is nothing stopping me now.
Peace & Blessing
Friday, February 17, 2012
My husband and son were in a car accident this morning. Now, before we get all deep into this, they are both ok. No worries and praise to the Highest for keeping them safe. Now, back to my story.
When I found out, my heart sank. I mean for real. I believe my heart actually stopped beating for a second because all I could think was, are they ok? As I rushed out of worked, red eyed from all the crying I was doing, my mind was racing. All I could think was, my baby, my baby. It was as if I was drowning. When I reached the scene things were pretty much taken care of. Kenji and Masaya were waiting for me in the back of a police car (which Masaya loved by the way. And the fact that there was an ambulance and a fire truck made his day.). I called Kenji and told him I was here and asked the police officer if I could get my son. She told me I would have to wait and then I really lost it! The tears were coming so quickly I feel embarrassed thinking about it now, after the fact. But this is my son and I will kill for him if I had to. The officer quickly changed her mind and opened the car door and Masaya came to me smiling and saying "Hi Mommy". I love them both so very much.
The point of all is this, please let the ones you hold dear know that they are loved. You NEVER know what will happen once you step out of your door. It was a regular day for us. Gong to work, running errands. I hold Kenji and Masaya so deep in my heart that we are all one entity. I charge you all to love the ones you're with. Tell them everyday or show them how much you care. Not only will you be blessed in return, but God forbid, if the alternative happens, you can be comforted knowing that both you and they were loved. Luther Vandross sang a song about "little miracles happen everyday". I firmly believe this and I am so grateful that its true.
I love you all
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Its so funny. Even though I'm married, Valentines day still sucks. My husband is not a romantic guy at all. Now, don't get me wrong. I am married to the most wonderful man and father. He is my greatest love and I am so happy and blessed to have him in my life. But, lets face it, he is NO Romeo. I'm lucky if I get a card. I see these guys going all out of their way and having grand gestures of love. I have to admit, I'm jealous. Unlike my husband, I am a romantic. A hopeless romantic at that, who secretly dreams about a knight in shining armor, even though I would never say it out loud (Oops, I just did. Oh well.).
But, there is one thing I do know. February 14, shouldn't be different from any other day. Why do I have to have romance on one day out of the year? Well, I guess it would be two times out of the year, since most people go all out on an anniversary too. But, what if I wasn't married or even in a relationship? What then? I should be getting loving the whole year round! I'm a firm believer in that! So save that money. Believe me, Hallmark does not need any more and you could sure use it more then them. And remember that everyday is Valentines day. You should be doing something to let the people around you know that you love them all the time. I try my best to do this and it makes the disappointment less, since I'm not excepting something on V-Day. I just expect it the next week. And the week after that and the week after that. :)
Anyway, for those of you who are the fortunate ones to go all out on this day, congratulations. I won't hate, I'll just celebrate with you today. And the day after that, and the day after that. Because like Andre 3000 says "Everyday is the 14th."
Sunday, February 12, 2012
The death of Ms Whitney Houston is a great sadness. No matter what you thought of her or the mistake she made and the judgments that were made, you could not deny that her voice was from GOD. It was a gift, a true gift because when she sang, it stirred something inside of you. I think of her, Amy Winehouse, Kurt Cobain and other who died so young and so unexpected and who that magic that they left is still with us. And it just confirms to me that we all have gifts. Be it music, or confidence, physical talents or a brilliant mind, we all are given something from the Creator. And it is our job to not waste our gifts. They are precious and a true connection between us and the Lord. Don't waste your gifts, I know that I'm trying my best not to take mine for granted. Love to you all.
Friday, February 10, 2012
I don't know if you've noticed, but I have a small mole directly under the outer corner of my right eye. I've always been so insecure about it and I have said for years that I would have it removed. Recently, my son keeps pointing it out. And he points to it and says "Mommy's pole". Its cute, I know, but I correct him nonetheless and say " No, Masaya. Its not a pole, its's my mole." And he would say it the right way and I would cringe. I mean, what's the big deal? My two year old has great sentence structure and I'm getting worked up over a mole? Its silly, I know. But then, a few days ago, he does his thing, points out my mole and says " I love Mommy pole". Well my dears, that was that. No removal for the "pole/mole". Its amazing how children see things and I think, if we could just look through their rose colored glasses sometimes, things would be a lot easier. Thank you Masaya for loving Mommy, just the way she is. Big kiss to my big boy and a big kiss to all of you! xxxx
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
I get up in the morning. I listen to readings from the Bible. I wash, get ready for work, kiss my baby and tell myself that I'm going to work out when I get home from work. I have been doing this for the past month. No, I've been doing this for the past few years. I stat out really well. One day, I just give myself a nice kick in the ass and start working out like I should. And I mean, working out. Sometimes I do 2 sessions a day. One in the morning and one in the evening, 4-5 days out of the week. I was doing this. And that is the key point.. I WAS doing this. Now, I just come home, catch up on Real Housewives that I DVR the night before and chill until Masaya wakes up from his nap and then I proceed to go on PotteryBarn.com to get things I don't need. Why do I do this to myself? I do it because, well, I'm lazy. There really is no other way to put it. I am the type of person, if I want something I will get it. I just talk a lot of shit, but I don't do it. Well world wide web, you are my witness. I need to get moving and YOU need to hold me accountable. I'm just hoping that enough of you read this and tell me to get off my ass and put that Mel B dvd in the player and start sweating!
Love to you all, always xoxo
Monday, February 6, 2012
Its so funny. I'm sitting here collecting all these ideas and images about gardening and the thing is, I do not now the first thing about gardening. Since we bought our home in November, the weather wasn't cause for getting things together, not mention that fact they were we're getting adjusted to the notion that we own our own house. Now that the "new-ness" of homeownership is wearing off, Kenji and i are really starting to put our time and money into bringing this house up to standards. Now, don't get me wrong, there's really not much for us to do, other then get the backyard into shape, change the outside cold and put some more furniture in here. What I'm rally suggesting is we have an image of our life, our family life and we are doing what we can to make that vision a reality. We're smart enough to know that we can't do this in a few weeks, months or a year, but we do know that it will get there and sooner then we anticipate.
I guess what I'm saying is, if there is something you want, go for it. Because the only thing stopping you is you. We live in a society where everything is instant and it kills us to have to wait. I know, I'm an only child and it still drives me crazy that I can't get something right when I want it. But, the thing about me is if I want something, I know that I'm going to get it. The older I've gotten, I just realize that it may or may not take time. Gotta go, back to gardening tips with Martha Stewart.
Sending so much love to you and you and you....
Sunday, February 5, 2012
I do this ALOT!!!! I start something and then I just stop. I blame it on laziness actually. Because I've found that there really is no other reason for this. Well, I've been inspired again. And I have no one, but serveal factors that contributed. number one is of course God. I know there are a so many people out there who don't believe in the Creator and moreover think that I'm silly and stupid for believing. But, I know there is a God, however, I'll save that for another posting. I've really been into my Bible and have been having morning meditation witht he odd to start my day. It really put me in a great state of my. Number two is my son and husband, really my whole family. I am so blessed to have so many people around me that truly want nothing but the best for me. That in itself is so inspiring and it fills me up all the time. Lastly, I've been inspired by the little things. A beautiful window display, a great perfume, a random strangers laugh. I feel like, we could all could just take one moment our of our day tone silent, it could change things so much.
And not only that, I think I really just got tired of just talking about things and not doing anything about it. I would always say things like "I miss singing" or "I move planning parties" but I would never do anything to jump start my passions. Well folks, I'm back this time and I hope it sticks. If not, you'll read about it a year from now, right!
Love to you all