Got your attention didn't I? Don't worry, I wont be exposing myself on this post. But, I do want to expose my motivation for staying fit. Notice I did not say I want to be skinny. Now, I understand if that is your build and who you are and what your goal may be, but its not mine. I am married to someone who is truly naturally skinny. My husband, Kenji has tried his best to gain weight through weight lifting, protein power and just sticking with a plain old junk food regimen. Nothing has worked. In fact he is the only person I know who came to America and lost weight! Take that obese statistics. But his frame is not one I long...the ability to pretty much each whatever he wants and not gain weight, yes of course I want that. But not the shape...here's why.
I want to look good naked, plain and simple. Its my main reason for trying my very best to change my lifestyle and be fit. Its a very selfish reason, nothing but vanity. But honestly, nothing seems to motivate my butt (no pun intended) more then this reason sadly. There are other reasons that are very close behind it; wanting to be an example for my child, living the best life I can live, looking great in cloths, but all these reasons still lag behind me in birthday suit everyday. And yes, a small part of me wants to be desired, I think its just natural. We are human after all and it does feel good to be noticed by others. At the same time, I like that fact that my partner, my love, knows what he has. Even though I am a goddess, as my girlfriend Katherine McFarland reminds me of (thanks girl! Back at cha!), as all us women are, I find that our partners need to be reminded from time to time about how lucky they are. That quick, 10 second, naked stroll from the tub to the towel is just that reminder. That quick glance and suddenly Kenji sees me as the only women in the world. Yeah, I like that power and that feeling. My mother has a great saying that she has used for years in her line of work as an esthetician and make-up artist: "When you look good on the outside, you feel good on the inside". Though true beauty comes from the inside, there is no doubt, knowing that the outside matches the inside only enhances that inner beauty. I've witnessed this with my own eyes. I have seen folks who have gotten healthy and through their change, not so much the weight loss, but their lifestyle change, they radiate confidence, security and overall happiness. Some journeys take time, but once that goal is reached, there is no stopping that light from shining.
Like I said, I don't want to be skinny. Skinny doesn't work for me (and after that Miley Cyrus VMA performance, honestly, I don't think skinny works for anybody). I am not looking for perfection either. I am realistic. I've had a child and eventually one day I'll have another. Birth changed my body as it's suppose to, but I love the woman I have become. I love my large bust, my big thighs and my muscular build. I want to be fit, cut, show off my great legs and tone up my arms and flatten my tummy. I want to take of my robe and look in the mirror and just say "Bitch, you look fierce!" I want to express sexiness, confidence and inspiration just through my walk. And when I'm strutting down the street to get my chai latte from Spot Coffee with Masaya, I want folks to think "Wow, I bet she looks great naked". Here's to all of us living a happy, healthy and blessed life.
Peace and love